OK, so this a new thing for me...... I never thought I'd be one to want a blog..... but, I thought I would take the advice of the people worried about me and do something productive with my thoughts, instead of freaking out.... so, what better way to use my first blog than to talk about why I am here:
I am in Grad school.... not just that; I live, eat, breath, sleep (and whatever else you can do) school!!!! I literally have no life anymore, which honestly has taken a toll..... since I am usually an "out about town" kind of person.... wanting to do things with my Hubby and friends, see my ol friends and family in Reno, etc.... YEP, that has all gone out the window. well, it all started to come to a head when I was in the last semester of my first year in Pharm school..... and I had a bunch of family members get ill or die unexpectedly..... like 3 of them at once.... and that was EXTREMELY difficult for my family and myself.... and then it seemed to have remained constant this summer.... and then it all came crashing down this past Fall... when more family members got disappotinting news about their health..... that was it for me (and my husband was out of comforting words... nothing seemed to work at this point).
Many of friends dont knw this but I went and talked to a counselor about my mental issues after what she said (and I agree) was an anxiety attack .... I honestly felt like everything in life wasnt worth living (and like I couldnt breath).... after A LOT of talking (and even more crying), her and I decided to do some constructive things for this.... and her trick is for me to say something positive after every negative thing I say: That is harder then it seems!!! But, I'm trying, and I hope this will help..... I have felt better and stronger lately, but I get down every once and awhile. And.... I am shocked that exercise has actually helped a lot!!!!
Anyways... be prepared to go on a emotional ride with me!!!!!! Thanks ~
3 comments:
blogging will help tremendously. also, my favorite advice for this, LET THE CRAZY OUT A LITTLE AT A TIME! thats my trick. i just go all diarhea of the mouth and let it out a bit and then i feel better. if you read my blog you can see i talk a ton about my CRAZY!
anyway. when you are in the compose mode (while writing your blog right above where you type on the right you will see compose or edit html) you want to be in compose, you will see a little tool bar above your writing. one of the tools will look like a tiny picture. if you click that it will let you upload pics right from your computer
So happy that you have an outlet. And so very sorry for all that you have gone through and maybe still be going through.
Post a Comment